closer to your love
This song was a journey, to put it lightly. It got rewritten at least twenty thousand times, over a spam of two years. The thing that always stayed in some way, was the chorus.
I had a period in my life where I started to run away more and more, mostly it had to do with the need to recenter myself. There was an inner need for more, even though I didn't really understand what that meant.
The world is so quick to think of their own ways to recenter; as long as it involves your own work and trying everything by yourself, there is no wrong way. I tried everything: meditation, quiet times, petitioning prayer, traveling - everything. The one thing that was not on that list, was actually obeying God in resting. Searching more for Him, having the right priorities. Dying to what I would deem to be logical. It was the only thing that truly gave rest with longterm positive outcomes - longlasting fruit.
It's to accept that you're tired, and that you're afraid, and that you will make mistakes. Longing for God is like a baby crying out for the presence of its parents. The further you're 'unwillingly' away from God, the louder your soul will cry.
Eggbolo, to force. To send. To drag. I rather go through many troubles while following Him, than trying to do everything by myself and thinking I am a good human being. I can enter His rest today, and I can do that by laying down my labours, my works.
LYRICS AND CHORDSHEET
All I desire is to be close to you
Watching the sunrise together
until the days get old
And while we can hear
the wind gusts and waves
beating against our house,
you talk just a bit louder to me
All the hairs on my head are known to you
And You start searching for me
when I run away from you
And when I am hiding
from the scary things
that make me question my ways
You ensure I still trust in Your name
Drag me deeper, Closer to Your Love
Hold me tighter, 'Till I fall asleep
Tell me stories, Dreams of who you are
Your kindness is the kind of love
I'm waiting for
You convict me of all I've done wrong to you
So we can hug each other again
like we once did before
And yes I know that you won't let me go,
Morning, spring, evening and fall,
oh Papa, I'm in love With you
I'm so in love with You